alright.. i know i seldom update.. n i think my blog is dying soon..

well.. too many things had happened.. i am worried sick for my brother.. he totally got himself into serious deep shit.. n i feel that he doesnt know the seriousness of the matter.. haiz.. so much as i wan to walk out n dont give a damn.. i stil cant.. went down to the police post today n got to call up the lawyers tml to try to peace things out.. damn..

this is the last time i am gonna clear shit for him..

Monday
went to acc dear for his checkup.. another week of mc for him..
before meeting him at the hosp.. i went to his hse n hide the present i got for him..
after sending him home.. i went to work.. afternoon shift for this week..
after work.. its 12mn exactly.. which is his bday.. i lied to him saying that i had to work ot so i cant come over le..
hee.. went over his place.. n i prepared a surprise for him.. =)
i am so happy to see the smile on his face.. n melted when he said he was very very touch..

Tuesday
my dear's bday..
spent it with our frens.. cos i celebrated wif him on sunday le..
went marina for steamboat.. after which we all headed down to O2 for a drink..
right.. n he vomited.. haha.. his purmei frens came down too.. shared cab home wif them..

Wednesday
went to work as usual..
after work i went down to zouk.. always fun there.. cos i can dance.. though the usual gang is not there.. but well.. i just love dancing..
however, towards the end i was quite pissed off.. not gonna mention wat incident.. nvm abt tt..
went back to dear's place..

Thursday
a normal day.. went home after work..
too much partying n late nights.. gonna rest a day..

Friday
went to work early.. i was having a super bad mood that day..
i just hated it when the other team ppl demands that we should let them use the equipment when i was there first.. so wat if u have samples.. we too have samples.. if not why would i be using the equipment.. selfish butch of ppl..
Due to work.. i was realli totally in a bad mood.. plus i was stuck not knowing where to go after work.. rh they all were at wala wala.. soulmate ask mi to go clubbing.. n my dear is celebrating his bday wif his purmei frens..
In the end, i went down to find dear.. knowing that the chances of my mood getting better after seeing him is quite high.. haha.. initially i was veri hesitant to go down.. partly bcos i was afraid that my mood will affect him n also bcos i was afraid of being left out..
but well, turned out i made the right decision.. i really had fun tt night..
went down to O2 to find them.. wah liew.. they already open like 4 to 5 bottles of martell.. faintz.. played dice with amos.. haha.. dont know how to spell his name.. he is super pro lo.. i kanna cheated by him.. hehe.. but lucky dear's gfs all protect mi..! haha..
after which, all of us headed down to St James, Dragonfly.. that place is huge lo.. n we all got in free of charge.. yeay.. they opened 2 bottles of martell there.. dotz.. n ordered waterfall for dear.. lucky i drank most of it for him.. if not i will be dragging him home liao.. haha..
the music there is not bad.. hee.. good experience..
overall.. it was a fun night.. =)

Saturday
pig out at his place.. went out for sushi wif him and caught Step Up..
omg.. the show is so nice.. actualli its a dancing movie.. so ppl whu have a passion for dancing should go see it.. hee.. met up wif the usual gang for ktv.. super duper long time since i have been there.. lol.. all of us didnt know wat songs to sing anymore! omg..
after ktv we chill out at coffee club express.. n i had my mud pie! yummi! =)

Sunday
after settling my bro's matter..
i rested at home awhile.. need to gather all my tots.. i admit i was feeling down.. not bcos of my bro.. i am sick of him already.. but bcos of my mom.. i really feel sad.. i really want her to be happy..
dear called n i went over to find him.. he is having serious hangover due to ytd's celebration..
acc him till ten plus.. then i went back home.. talked to rh.. haha..

i m strong.. i can do this.. yes i can !

ok.. some updates..

i cant rem wat i did the last week.. last weekend was spent at aranda country club for hc n cs bday chalet.. went down on fri after work.. next day was just slacking myself away at the chalet.. well cos dear cant do anything due to his hand injury.. played mj.. n i nearly nearly got the dont wat 13 cards thingy.. wah liew.. i already waiting to game le.. short of 1 tile nia.. lol.. exciting lehz.. haha.. after which is buffet.. hc's parents n relatives came over.. haha.. surprisingly his mom stil rems mi.. lol.. pop down to cs' chalet n saw nigel, jona, sihao, thomas n mingyu.. played heart attack.. haha.. then it was cut cake session.. so sorry that i couldnt go down to cs' one.. something crop up.. just dont wish to mention here..

monday went to work all the way till 11 plus.. siannn... then went over his place cos he got operation on tuesday.. end up i cant wake up.. i guess i was just tired.. his mom acc him there.. the operation finish at late afternoon so he cant discharge..
today i went over in the morning n had lunch wif him n his mom.. wait for the nurse to do the procedures n we went home... supposed to go down zouk to look for rh.. but sorry boy.. i was really tired plus tml have to work.. hiakz..

i browse thru some of my fren's blog n saw this interesting quiz.. to be frank.. its really true u know.. i am surprised.. it realli speaks of wat i am facing now..

You have a vivid imagination and this is good. Great inventors, explorers all had inventive, imaginative minds. Your friends and acquaintances may consider you over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. So what ? this is a part of your character and charm.

You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.

Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.

these few days my mind is preoccupied with alot of stuffs..
Dinner n dance this fri.. n i havent bought my shoes..
Gb 21st bday chalet this weekend..
Dear's bday this weekend n i havent prepared anything for him.. i totally have no time.. haiz..
everything is happening around the same time.. no money as well.. bcos i wanna give more to my mom..
Plus another more serious stuffs.. my father has been exchanging email with mi.. i am pissed by the words he used.. to all guys out there.. if u think u cant commit to anything, then dont fucking get into a marriage n ruin everyone's life.. everyday i have been thinking abt this.. i sent an email back to him screwing him upside down.. n ya.. he threatened with a divorce..
so wat.. i had to swallow my pride, reason things out with him n help my mom.. i really cant take it anymore..
and yet after all these, i really dont know how to tell my mom abt wat he said to mi.. bcos i know she will be sad.. she will ask mi to swallow everything down n "sweet talk" to him... damn bastard..

i am trying not to let it affect my work.. but it just seems to pop out.. and i stil havent send wat the msg tt i promise rh i would.. i stil have yet to reply to cs.. argh..

I Need a Break!! anyone.. anybody.. take mi away from all these..